Getting My Geek On

I know I’ve been absent, but that’s only because it’s almost May–which means crunch time.

I’ve got papers and problem sets, and just plain problems. But the Undergrad Conference is behind me. I don’t know how to explain to you how incredible it is to talk economics with people my own age and feel a little out of my depth.

It’s wonderful. It pushes me onward. Not that I was that outclassed. I was an expert on my own paper. It was such a rush to explain what I did and why, and what I thought were the interesting underlying questions.

To keep my inner geek happy, I just bought a book on Game Theory and a book called The Wisdom of Crowds.

My inner geek is sleepy now.

Sunday Mourning

It’s a sad thing to be standing at the stove, stirring a pot of pudding, and realise that your father is dying.

It’s the kind of sad that bids you back to the keyboard, because your blog is the only person who would understand the confliction that you feel–along with the clarity.

The clarity that tells you that nothing really matters but family, and those friends who become family. It doesn’t matter the things they do or say. It doesn’t matter if they’ve ever hurt you.

It just matters that they are there, and that someday they won’t be.

And you hope and you pray, through tears you never thought you’d cry, that they know how much you love them, even if sometimes you weren’t even sure yourself.

Cursed Week

It seems that this is the week that tragedy chooses to brandish its burn.

I know because this is the week that had been April Vacation when I was in school, and it is the week that precedes my birthday.

Oklahoma City Bombing.

Columbine.

And now Virginia Tech.

I’ve purposefully avoided most of the media coverage. I just don’t want to know. I don’t know how to reconcile optimism with the world we actually live in.

But its impossible to avoid all of the news. Most of my perspective on this comes from my Glenn Beck obsession. I can turn off the news, but not the Glenn.

Anyway, I digress.

I’m left with a feeling of despair.

Or, more precisely, why bother?

What is the point of all the cooking, and cleaning, and studying? What does it all do, besides keep me wrapped up in a world of contrivances?

None of this life I lead feels real. It feels artificial and constructed. I don’t do things because I have this short life to live, and to feel, and to learn.

I do it because I need 22 more credits to get my degree. I do it because the rent is due. I do it because it is what I perceive to be most acceptable to society, whatever that is, and why ever I think that is important.

And that just seems wrong.

I Know…

… that you’re all jealous of my mad Paint skillz.

Oh How Lovely Was the Morning

So, this morning isn’t very lovely. It’s COLD. Has no one informed the world that it is April?

Anyway, Happy Easter. I’m trying to think of this as my spiritual new year. The thought came to me whilst arguing doctrine with a bunch of people over on the Glenn Beck Insider Forums.

Yes, the geekery hurts.

I’ve also  figured out that I can put the Conference Talks on my iPod. It takes awhile to download, so I am just dling the first session for my ride down to the Grandparents’.

Don’t eat too much chocolate!

C’est la Vie

Life is full of disasters.

Tomorrow is the 13th straight day of work without a day off. I take a break for Easter, but it isn’t a real day off. I have to study for Micro and finish a bunch of training stuff for work.

As soon as the Micro exam is taken, I have to write an outline for the tax project and write the first draft of a research paper I haven’t even begun to research yet. And I’m supposed to be working on the paper I am presenting in Boston at the end of the month.

In the midst of this, I spent a night in the ER before spending $500 dollars to have a tooth pulled.

And I just flooded the bathroom. Don’t ask me how. I don’t know.

And nothing is unpacked.

But I have to be up in 5 hours, so thoughts of redemption and sweaters never worn will have to wait for another time.

Heretic!!

I had a tooth pulled today. I’m in a world of pain.

Maybe it’s because I’m a heretic…

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